Bittersweet Farm

You can purchase the Kindle version of my new book Finding Bittersweet here.

Our youngest son, Wes and his wife Dylan are expecting a baby girl this week.

On Thursday proof copies of Finding Bittersweet should arrive out on Bittersweet Farm. Soon thereafter the book will be available on Amazon. If you sometimes wrestle to see the sweet in the bitter our you know someone who does, I think this book will encourage and inspire.

Sometimes things will get better. Sometimes they will not get better in this life. It is then especially when our faith is tested and we cling to the promises of God. Today’s story is an example of that.

Music in the Mountains

Our oldest son, Kyle is a pastor in Grand Rapids. A couple years ago a family needed his pastoral services. Grandpa had died. Kyle preached his funeral and ministered to the family. A few months later the family called again. This time the news was especially bitter. Their fourteen-year-old son had died at his own hand. The family was devastated.

Kyle spent time with them. He prayed with them and listened to their stories. The boys mother and father were divorced. They shared custody. Kyle asked the boy’s mother if she could share a happy memory about her boy. She told him this story:

One summer they visited the Natural Bridge State Park in Kentucky. The plan was for them to hike up to the bridge together. It is a tough hike. On the way up mom ran out of strength. She just couldn’t go on. She found a bench and sat down to rest. Brokenhearted, she told her son, “Go on without me. I’ll have to wait for you here.”

He sat down with her. “Mom, I love you. I didn’t come here to see the Natural Bridge. I came to spend time with you.”

She insisted. He took off and ran to the top and quickly returned to join his mom on the bench. He said, “There’s someone up there with an instrument, mom.”

They sat there in silence at dusk or a few minutes when, suddenly beautiful music began to drift down from above them. Not just birdsong and wind in the leaves, but something more. It was the cello. The music filled the giant amphitheater of mountain and forest with with music.

They sat and listened to the music that day on the bench on the mountainside—music that seemed especially arranged for them.

She said; “I will always cherish that memory.”

Deep silence.

Kyle listened to the story quietly and then said; “One day there will be a new heaven and there will be a new earth. I think in the new heaven and the new earth there will still be a Natural Bridge. I think you can go back one day. In your glorified body you will be able to reach the top together.

Life in this broken world can damage your spirit and threaten your faith, but we have the promises of God that one day all that is wrong in this world will be made right and those who hope in Jesus will be with Him again in a place were divorce do violence to love and young boys will never again be crushed with despair.

Bittersweet Farm
April 7, 2019

This weekend I played injured and under-the-influence, but I played. Thursday on the way home from my Aunt Ann’s funeral in Ohio I began to tremble with something dreadful in my innards. Friday I spent most of the day sleeping, mercifully, bright sunlight fell through the window across the bed. Saturday I started medications designed to kill the infection that afflicted me.

Sunday my Bethel talk was on rest. I called it “Red Dot Days.” It came from a deep place in my soul. I drove home and crawled back into bed and enjoyed two sweet hours of drooling sleep, rose and drove to Kalamazoo. I had promised to tell stories at a hymn-sing that involved old favorites, harmonica, a spirited choir, and a women’s trio and a lively men’s quartet. It was all led by my little brother Nathan. There was great joy and love in the house. After church we went to a sit-down restaurant and I began to get my legs under me again. The custard helped some. Maybe it was the gummy bears, but is was probably the green antibiotic pills. I stayed late, drove home and tumbled into bed for a good night’s rest without doing any of my normal Sunday afternoon writing.

I’m feeling a bit better today, but I may run out and stock up on gummy bears just to be safe.

How Well Are You Following Jesus?

If you really know Jesus you will have rest in your soul. This is how he put it. “Come to me all you who labor and are heavy-laden and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and lovely in heart, and you will find rest for your souls.” (Matthew 11:28-29)

If you don’t have rest in your souls, you are not following Jesus well.

Charles Spurgeon once illustrated the importance of rest in this way:

“Look at the mower on a summer’s day. With so much to cut down before the sun sets, he pauses in his labor. Is he a sluggard? He looks for a stone and begins to draw it up and down the scythe, rink a tink, rink a tink, rink a tink. He is sharpening his blade. Is that idle music?

Is he wasting precious moments? How much he might have mown while he was ringing out those notes on his blade. But he is sharpening his tool. And he will do far more when once again he gives his strength to those long sweeps which lay the grass prostrate in rows before him. Even thus a little pause can prepare the mind for greater service in a good cause.”

Once an elderly man gave me sound advice. He said; “Son, every now and then you need to take the scenic route.” I did that one day driving my Red Jeep, George from South Bend to Detroit across Michigan on old Route 12. It was a glorious October day. I turned off the radio, powered down the windows and let the fresh air blow through my soul. Along the way I drove within just a few miles of the place we now own and call Bittersweet Farm. I had no idea that the countryside I was savoring that day would become our home. There was no way of knowing that God would display his goodness to us in such a rich kindness. The drive took a lot longer but I arrived home with a peaceful spirit. It was good for my soul. The old man was right.

Someone once asked a Rabi, “How have the Jews preserved the Sabbath for thousands of years?”

The old Rabbi answered; “The Jews have not preserved the Sabbath. The Sabbath has preserved the Jews.” 

Jesus, himself took naps and long walks along the lake. He retreated to the mountains, the wilderness and the sea to rest and meditate and pray. When he worked he worked hard, but he did not always work. There was more to his life than work.

Our daughter Holly is married to a “doer.” He is a diligent, hard-working, organized responsible man and his default setting is “getting things done.” She loves him deeply and enjoys the fruit of these qualities in her life, but one day she said; “We’re going on a trip to his folks this weekend. I’m so looking forward to it. We will be in the car together for hours. There will be no projects to distract him. I will have him all to myself.”

Did it ever occur to you that God really can run the whole universe without your help? He lets you work with Him because He loves you, but he is in no way dependent on your help. Sometimes he just wants you all to himself. How often does God get you all to himself?

Have you ever been with a loved one and you want to say; “Look at me. Just stop what you are doing. Sit down. Put everything else aside and be with me.”

There is joy obedeience to the all the things our Creator has commanded. This is true of sabbath. Bible teacher Marva Dawn wrote in her book Keeping Sabbath Wholly; “God did not tell us to keep the Sabbath holy to spoil our fun, but to deepen our joy.” 

As New Testament believers we are not under obligation to keep the Sabbath but God created in such a way that our souls to flourish in a sacred rhythm of work and rest.

I am a follower of Jesus who took naps and long walks and enjoyed leisurely conversation over slow meals with friends and commanded his followers to observe birds and consider flowers and take a regular day off. I know this: If my soul is not at rest, I’m not following Jesus well.

Bittersweet Farm
April 1, 2019

I’m writing this in the waning hours of the weekend. Friday night we stayed in a rustic log cabin in Holmes County, Ohio. Eight of us shared the place, so it was cozy. Our family has been using these cabins for 30 years. Out on the front porch of the cabin is a log bench. Little Koen is four. He sat down on the bench and dangled his feet while he sipped his cocoa. It reminded me of a picture I have of his mother sitting on that same bench when she was his age. That kinda’ stuff tugs on your heart.

It was a cold moonlit night when we arrived a the cabin. Soon the whole place was warm and glowing with a dancing wood fire. We had a good, old-fashioned “tellin'” in the cabin. Late into the night we laughed and swapped stories and memories. In the morning we had coffee and huge cinnamon twists from the Amish bakery. We puttered around the area, browsed the shops, and drove home Saturday arriving back in time to sleep well and enjoy our Bethel family on the Lord’s Day, rested and happy. It’s nice to be home. I’m sure we tucked-away some good memories this weekend.

Sunday morning when I walked into the Bethel Worship Center I looked over and saw Hope with little Keira. They had picked up ice coffees and they were wearing matching outfits and they were ready for worship. Keira loves her aunt Hope. The Bethel Kids sang a lively number in the service. Keira and Koen had front row seats. We welcomed four more new members. Bethel just keeps growing. April 1 we will have two more full-time staff members working with children, teens, and families. (Amy McDole and Andrew Wadsworth).

My Aunt Ann lives in Ohio. Springtime is coming to the gentle hills there, but my Aunt Ann will not live to see it. Her springtime will be in heaven. It’s always blossom-time there. It makes you think. You only get a few springtimes and then your steps will slow and you won’t have little round faces to kiss, and sweet little voices asking questions, and chubby hands to hold. They will grow up and make children of their own and memories of their own and you will have to work a little harder to keep looking forward and not looking back all the time.

They say it’s going to be sunny in the morning. Springtime is here. I’m looking forward to it.

Bittersweet Farm
March 24, 2019

It’s the second day of spring out here on Bittersweet Farm. Saturday night the sky was clear and the moon was bright. I stepped out into the night about ten p.m. and coyotes were in the field just west of the house howling ferociously. I go back inside and our dog Hazard is lookin’ at me, trying to get me to share my frozen pizza with him. I don’t beg for his food. I finish my pizza and pick up a book. He growls and tosses his toys around trying to get me to put down my reading and play. If he doesn’t curl up at my feet and go to sleep soon… well, let’s just say it this way. Next month he is going to turn ten, if I don’t send him out to play with the coyotes.

You might want to brew some coffee or tea, I got a little wordy this week.

My Shameful Past

I loved to read dramatic conversion stories when I was growing up. I still do. They make inspiring reading. They would go something like this:

“I was a great athlete/actor/singer, etc. I had fame, fortune, opportunities to travel the world and make a name for myself, but I gave it all up to follow Jesus.”

Or maybe they would say something like this: “Before I was saved I had women. Boy did I have women. I had a different woman every weekend. And did I ever drink and take drugs. I took… (insert long list of drugs taken or drinks consumed).”

I stayed up all night reading this one: “I was a high priest in the church of Satan.” About 15 years after getting most of American evangelicalism worked up about the evils of beggars night they discovered that this guy was never a high priest in the church of Satan. Someone cross-checked his facts and it was exposed that he was a sinner, but not a Satanist. He was a liar. During the time he claimed he was a high priest in the Church of Satan he was actually a fresh-faced Bible College student in the midwest.

My Boring Life

Sometimes I listened to their stories and I felt like their life really did seem pretty colorful before they were saved, but I wondered if they maybe missed it just a little.

One day many years ago, when the children were young, I gave up golf. I just sold my clubs, gave Lois the money as a gift, and told her and the children I would rather be with them then spend hours on the golf course alone. It really wasn’t a great sacrifice. It was pleasant to have a good reason for a long walk on a beautiful spring morning, but little more. I never regretted that decision, but there were a few occasions after that, when I would drive by a well-maintained emerald-green golf course. I would slow down and remember my golf days and, for a few seconds, I would miss my old golfing days.

That was the impression I would often get when I would listen to some of those conversion stories—It was almost as if they were slowing down as they passed the golf course and lowering their window and closing their eyes and smelling the clippings from the green and remembering old times with a wistful nostalgia. They were a little too entertaining sometimes. They made your normal Christian life seem kinda’ lackluster.

My Own Conversion Story

I was saved in family devotions when I was five. I knelt at the couch, confessed my sin and professed my faith in Christ. So I don’t have a very interesting testimony of dark things I did before I was saved.

I did spit my unwanted candy behind the dresser and lied about it when my mother confronted me once.

I sometimes disobeyed my parents when they sent me to bed. I read my Sunday School paper in bed at night with a flashlight under my covers when I was supposed to be sleeping.

I made up stories that weren’t true because I loved it when people paid attention to me. (There was a boy at camp last summer who entertained his whole cabin with a a scandalous lie… The lie quickly spread all over camp. It included crimes in gratuitous detail.

I pulled him aside and I told him, “There is nothing wrong with telling stories. Jesus did it himself. He even told stories that didn’t happen. He made up stories. But they were pure and honorable stories and he never tried to pass them off as if they had actually happened.”

I told the boy, “You could come back here someday when you are my age and you could tell stories all week and they would feed you and give you a special place to sleep you wouldn’t have to share your room with anyone else and you would have your own shower and wouldn’t have to wait in line. You would have your own private room and there wouldn’t be any bad smells in your room at all unless you made em’ yourself.”

Anyway, I did sometimes make up stories to get attention. I did love attention. Still kinda’ do.

To be honest, I talked too much in school. This was a serious and recurring problem. You can see this on every single grade card in every single school, with every single teacher. Dad would say; “Kenny, when you say something, make a mark on a paper. When you have made three marks, stop talking. In my line of work today, I spend a lot of my time in meetings. I still like to talk, so I always try to remember my Dad’s advice. I’m working on that.

When I was a child I didn’t rebel, run away, or shoplift. I didn’t cut myself or others. I didn’t cuss, except for a month or so in the third grade but I prayed and the Lord took that away from me and it never came back. I didn’t murder anyone. I did continually pick on my little brothers, but I had no intention of ever really hurting them. Sometimes my sister got under my skin but not usually, and certainly not enough to ever make me consider assault or homicide.

I did put some bleach water in a 7Up bottle one time and gave it to my little brother to drink, but I thought it was just dirty dishwater from the sink, so I ‘m not saying I was a good kid, but my testimony was pretty plain vanilla, nothing really scurrilous that made great telling.

I didn’t commit adultery or fornication. That wasn’t very hard when I was small. Girls really didn’t like me. I liked girls but I showed it by teasing them, which I learned later, only irritated them.

I didn’t take drugs, except I think I took a couple doses of Ritalin once after my parents took me to the guy with the pipe and the tweed jacket with patches on the sleeves and the big book of ink blots. My parents were trying to help me keep out of trouble in school —mostly to settle me down and keep me from talking too much in class and they disagreed about giving me drugs, so I think I only took a couple doses. Other than that, no drugs.

I was unpopular in high school so no one ever invited me to their parties or tempted me with drugs. I didn’t smoke or drink but I have to admit that I ate an embarrassing amount of sweets. My financial management as a child is not something I’m proud of. I once spent all the money in my Doggy Bank for gum balls. I discovered a place on the way to school that had a jar of gum balls on the glass counter. They were nice big gum balls. Grape. Cherry. One was a kind of yellow-orange swirl. I loved them at first. For just a minute or two they were so good and so sweet. About the same time they lost their flavor I would get a guilty feeling of regret somewhere between my head and my stomach that took away every bit of the sweetness.

Before I got to school I would spit the big, tasteless wad out of my mouth and I would try to shake the guilt out of my soul, or distract myself from the shame of deceiving my parents and doing what I knew would not please them. Even sharing the gum balls with other did not help. The dark cloud of guilt followed me everywhere I went.

There was a day of reckoning when my dad discovered that I had spent all my savings. He took my doggy bank away gravely and said; “Kenny we are going to give this back when you are mature enough not to spend every nickel you make.”

Dad still has that bank… Kidding. He gave it back before I got married, but no matter how hard he tried he was never able to reform my self-indulgent bent. It never escalated to the level of social damage, crime, or moral degradation, but let’s just say I’ve not really been a model of frugality and self-restraint. I’m better at spontaneous generosity and indulgence. So I’m good at a party and fun to be around, but lets just say I don’t think I’m ever going to featured on the Dave Ramsey show.

All kidding aside; I’ve noticed these days it’s popular to write books about leaving your bad, aberrant, religious upbringing. It’s popular to complain about how your over-zealous religious parents warped you or damaged you, but now you have to it right where they had it wrong. I know that happens and it is particularly confusing to distort following Jesus into something burdensome or manipulative, but that was not at all my experience.

I was raised by sincere, first-generation Christian parents. Their motto was, “As for me and my house, we will serve the Lord.” It was on a plaque featured in our living room.

Our week revolved around the Lord’s Day. On Saturday Dad washed the car and detailed it for the Lord’s Day. On Saturday evening we lined up our Sunday shoes and spit-shined them so we would not have to hunt for them in the morning. There were suits and ties for the men, dresses for the girls. While were were shining our shoes and doing our “Quarterlies” Dad was studying for his sermon and mom was preparing music.

We were involved in every kind of Christian ministry in our home growing up, Sunday School, Sunday Morning Worship, Sunday night services, youth meetings, Usher’s School, Vacation Bible School, Five-Day Clubs, Good News Clubs, Child Evangelism, buss calling, Soul-winning visitation, hospital visitation, rest home ministry, jail ministry, street meetings. There were bible studies and plenty of Scripture memory.

The highlight of our year was a week away at Christian summer camp, when we reached 14 years old we were counselors for another week. We attended hymn-sings, Bible conferences, revivals, and seminars. Our family listened almost exclusively to Christian music. We cherished Christian radio programs like Children’s Bible Hour, Unshackled, The Haven of Rest, J. Vernon McGee, and Radio Bible Class. Our home was always filled with Christ-honoring music and there was helpful Christian literature in every room, including the top of the toilet tank.

We hosted missionaries, evangelists, revivalists and Christian workers in our homes and followed their ministries with sincere interest. We did not make much of collecting baseball cards, but we had missionary prayer cards on our fridge and we used them.

I have no complaints about being raised in a Christian home. I know enough about my dark nature apart from Christ to realize that when I knelt at the couch during family devotions at five years old, and repeated a sinners prayer, I was saved—I was saved from a life of sin. Sin, that would have crushed my spirit, destroyed my life and dragged me into hell forever.

The older I get, the more it is my goal in life to do for my children and grandchildren what my parents have done for us. I don’t really have a dark past, but there is a reason for that.

Ken Pierpont
Bittersweet Farm
March 18, 2019

They say it’s going to be in the 60’s on Thursday out on Bittersweet Farm. Today all the ice and snow melted off the circle drive out front. It been covered up for weeks. The yard is still white and gray with snow and ice. Strong winds this winter have littered the ground with branches. I look out my window and yearn for warm spring evenings when I can pick them all up and build a roaring fire.

This afternoon Lois and I ate at a favorite Mexican eatery where they serve limeade. I fill my cup over and over again and imagine myself eating in the plaza of some little down deep in Mexico along the Eastern Sierra Madres on a warm summer evening… then I remind myself that the trees on Bittersweet won’t fully leaf and the Dogwoods won’t be white for two full months and I snap out of my daydream.

In the mornings I walk slow to my car to listen to the birds. They are getting bold. I welcome them. I guess they welcome me. I’m the newcomer.

When People Bug You

I went to a place of business this week and bumped into a young woman who was very efficient. Trouble was she wasn’t efficient at her job, she was efficient at being brash and rude and disrespectful. She was remarkably good at it. In just a few short sentences and a couple of curt gestures she managed to irritate me. I’m not that easy to irritate. Good-natured as I am, she got under my skin. She was one of those types who is good at being bad.

You have anybody in your life like that? I tried to help her out a little bit with a little “stand-up customer service coaching.” It made things worse. She didn’t appreciate it. I have to admit I steamed about it. She irritated me. As I drove away I had a little talk with myself; I said, “Ken. Wait. She does not know the Lord, You don’t know what she has been through, You don’t know her story… You are a Christian. You are a pastor in this town. This is your parish…. What if somebody invites her to the Easter Service…”

Don’t look at me like that. You have people who bug you, you know you do. Have you had an inner conversation like this when sinners bug you, when they disgust you or worse, they relentlessly persecute you?

Maybe you are listening to my little story and thinking “I wish that was the worst of my problems…”

Let me give you some help on this. It helps to remember who you were or who you would be without Christ. Paul said it this way to Titus:

“For we ourselves were once foolish, disobedient, led astray, slaves to various passions and pleasures, passing our days in malice and envy, hated by others and hating one another. But when the goodness and loving kindness of God our Savior appeared, he saved us, not because of works done by us in righteousness, but according to his own mercy, by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit, whom he poured out on us richly through Jesus Christ our Savior, so that being justified by his grace we might become heirs according to the hope of eternal life.” (Titus 3:3–7, ESV)

Remember. If you are Christian you are the Bride of Christ and the Bride of Christ never has to lower herself to mud-wrestling.

I love the French Laundry in Fenton, Michigan. It is one of the most unique places I have ever been. They have a variety of pastries like an authentic rugelach, hamantashen, and a brownie that has a layer of carmel baked into it. (Buenos Ares Brownies) They serve sandwiches with applewood smoked bacon and Vermont cedar cheese. Their coffee alone is worth the drive.

It is one of my favorite restaurants and it is completely outfitted with furniture salvaged from dumps and garage sales. The furniture is stuff nobody else wanted. Salvaged furniture made useful and beautiful by someone with a plan.

A church should be like that—full of people who were once on the discard pile but they were reclaimed and made useful and beautiful by and through Christ.

Our churches will never be like that if we treat people with contempt. We have to treat them with compassion like Jesus did. (If you watch the message below, you will hear a whole talk on this).